So i met this girl last year at homecoming. it was the first time i had seen her and it was Amazing from the first second i saw her my heart started jumping and my mined had a million things to say, like who is that girl, and like i have to get closer to her, it realy felt like love at first sight, i had never had this with any girl before so anyway. We met and danced a couple of times that night. A couple days later i asked my freind if hFriend her myspace, (because we had no classes to gether thatget herealy the oreplyay to talk) so i requested her and we talked. we started texting eachothier like every day. It sucked though because she was grounded durring thaduringwe never realy got treplyme to hang out, only at football games could we do anything cause she was on the band (ya i know band geek but shees the mshe’smzing one Amazing met, she quit this year though) so we grew closer and closer and i talked to her about her problems and how i would be thier for htheire was going threw a tough time in her life plus shes bipolar aswell as eas welltimes) i would help her get over things and calm her when she cried. So one night comes along were she’s in one of the worst moods of her life she had broke down in class erler that day and she was crying again at home, so i get her to calm down and stop crying, then asked her if i could tell her something and she said yes. So right then i let out all the feelings i had for her i told her so much it was so long ago i cant even rember fully it was really long, i rember saying i would do anything for her id take an infnate amount of bulits for her i give you my heart sole mined and body for the rest of eternity i would never do anything to hurt her and suff like that, So i get a text back saying "oh you got me crying again"(of happienes)P.S. durring this time she was still in a relation ship. So anyway every day in school before homeroom we’ed meet up and sheed give me a hug but it feltlike more then just a hug i could have stayed thier forever just me and her embracing eachother to the end of eternity. i reamber this one day i was walking to home room and theres just a crowd of people walk by and she ponces out from the back of the crowed into my arms i loved holding her. any way id walk her to class and then id go out my day. but when ever thier was a day when she wasnt at school or we couldnt talk thy were the worst days. it was like i was going threw withdraw she ment everything to me. i rember one day i asked her how long she’ll stay, like close to me she said i had her iternal affection and she would stay as long as i wanted her, i said id stay with her for iternity and she agreed. any way its around thanksgiving now, no it is thanks giving iv been talking to her bf for a while now and he is realy getting on my nerves. i told him about me and her and was saying how lucky he was to have her but he would always claim he loved her more then any one on a planet, and it was imposable i was willing to exsept it was ether me or him i was leaning a lot more torwards me any way i eventchaly got realy pissed of and well i got realy woriyd for candice(wow i hvent said her name yet) i was scarred because every time i saw a picture of her and her bf i want to put my fist through the wall(i would never hit her but i would beat the living hell out of her bf) but i knew hurting viny her then bf would hurt her so i told her my be we should stop being freinds, she replyed one of the saddist things i can remember. ‘you dont want me?’ so any way i changed my mined id just have to try not killing viny, so anyway things happend and for a couple weeks we werent freinds then it happend agian and then a third time for three monthes i gues i was pressuring her to much. alright its near the end of summer i send her a re:request on my space that says can we start over she freinds me but doesnt answere. anyway we have class to gether now and she might be doing wresteling
(witch is odd but thats something id expect her to do), and i wrestle. we talk kinda in class share some laughs but wheni asked for her phone number or if she wants to hang out she doesnt reply but, when were in class she wants me in her groups and talks about how she wants her me and bill to be in a project group together so she can go over me and bills houses. (bills my best freind also her and bill are buddies)
but anyway im so confused i want to be close to her again and i wont mess up this time but i try and talk to her and it seems like she doesnt want use to be any more then aquanteces.
anyway thier is a lot i didnt say like how she used to call me her jacob like jacob black from the twilight books, thier was so much i didint say
anyway i just feal so torn inside somedays shes all i can think of othiers shes not even in my minedi still love but not like i used to. what do you think. will we ever be close again will i ever have her in my arms agian if i do one day i dont think ill ever let go
(p.s. vince the k
Originally posted 2009-07-08 10:45:50.
.Your besotted by another guys girlfriend.Of course you can return to these happy days again.Remember at this time though,this girl really only wants your friendship